An episode of Masters of Sex aired tonight about a man whose wife had an aneurysm, a stoke. People call her a vegetable, her husband calls her a corpse. He says his life is over, being her caretaker.

I have a pit in my stomach. I am afraid. I realize Phil is on blood thinners, that this helps reduce the risk of stroke, but it still terrorizes me.

I have major anxiety that has surfaced just tonight. Phil has had a constant headache since he has left the hospital. He has been hydrating and trying to rest, though at night he is unable to sleep. That might make two of us tonight.