you say scatter brain like it’s a bad thing

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I’m all over today. In my head I’m darting off in different directions and can’t seem to focus on any one thing. City Slicker’s Curly would not be pleased. These totally random snippets of thought keep poking in, and I imagine this has to be a taste for what people living with ADD go through.

They’re the strangest thoughts, too. Thoughts about how I should stop having thoughts and should instead focus on stories, complete beginning, middle, end stories with arcs. But I can’t seem to get there. I’m too impatient for arcs right now. Instead, I have random memories poking about.

I remember when our mother took us shopping with her at a department store, and how Lea and I would pretend the whole store was our house. That we got to live in the department store, use whichever beauty products, clothes, shoes, table linens. Yes, I thought of sheets and canopy beds, and chandeliers even back then.

I’m thinking about their Halloween costumes, how we haven’t ordered them yet, or made any effort in choosing what they’ll wear. And then I think about the possibility that I might have to miss Halloween this year because I’m in LA on Friday Oct. 30, and if I have a meeting scheduled for that Monday, I’ll still be in LA and will miss it. I can’t miss it! I’m really looking forward to this.

I’m freaking out about vaccinations. I hate all the conflicting advice and research. Hate hearing the autism stories and the stories about children who died, as recently as last week, at our children’s hospital in Austin from the swine flu. If everyone stopped taking vaccinations, we’d have another plague. But when is it really safe for your taters to be vaccinated? At what age? And are the vaccinations proven effective? I hate all the questions it raises but realize just hating it doesn’t do me a bit of good. I’ve got to read up on all the research from several different sources and make our own determination. Which is awesome because I love adding things to my overly neglected to-do list.

I have baby gifts to send, wedding gifts to send, and magazine subscriptions to order.

I’m thinking about last night, at The Writer’s League, where an author mentioned that successful people make lists because just by making the list, you’re clearing out the clutter and worry and stress of having so much to do. There. It’s out now, on a page. So it needn’t be swimming about, interrupting any progress I’m making anymore. I can get to it next.

I know I want to begin working on my next book, but until I’ve completed all that needs to happen on the TV and feature film side of things, I’m hesitant to even go there. I don’t really adore the whole multi-multi-task so much. It’s much easier to juggle blog entries with a job that has nothing to do with writing, plus a single writing project than it is to juggle three writing projects plus a blog.

So there it is.

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  1. It must be tough — the blog shouldn’t feel like an obligation to you, but I know it’s probably important to you to promote your other work (and, of course, for personal reasons).
    I hope you find a way to make it work :)

  2. Seasonal flu yes-h1n1 yes-not the mist-it is a live virus wait
    unitl h1n1 is available as a shot
    My two boys had seasonal flu vaccine-no problems-my husband and I both work in healthcare….

    1. not trying to get you angry here…but i think people would rather hear better reasons for why you think getting those vaccines are a good idea other than that you work in healthcare.
      it’s like saying “premarital sex is bad”, i work in the church.

    2. Yes to the seasonal influenza vaccination and wait for the H1N1 vaccination to come out to get them that as well, the wait time between those vaccinations is only a few weeks anyway. I’m a nurse in Canada and there is one study that is un published and non peer reviewed that says that getting the seasonal influenza vaccination could lead to a higher chance of getting H1N1. It is highly unlikely that this is true at all. We are encouraging everyone to get the seasonal influenza vaccination especially if your kids are exposed 5x week.

  3. When you’re reading, check out the Scandinavian study debunking the vaccination/autism link. Essentially, the well-trained eye can spot at around 6 months the traits that develop into autism, well before the controversial two-month vaccinations.

    Also, my daughter caught a light case of pertussis (whooping cough) when she was 18 months old, despite having her first shot, because it’s so strongly back in the community. If that’s a light case I’d hate to see a “real” case. She was sick for 6 weeks and coughed so hard she had broken blood vessels in her eyes.

  4. Wow, great site. I love reading blogs about motherhood! It seems like there is constantly new things to learn about it. I don’t have time to read it all right now, I found this site when looking for something else on Google, but I’ve bookmarked your homepage and will come back again soon to read the latest. Thanks again for this blog – it is really well-done.

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