Can you sit down?
Do I have to?
Please, it’s important.
I just… would you still love me, respect me, and feel proud of me if I weren’t a writer? If I was just their mother for a while?
Well, I’d love you. I guess I’d respect you, but…
Way to show unconditional love.
I said I’d still love you!
But why can’t you love, respect, and still be proud of me, no matter what I do?
I’d be proud of your past accomplishments!
That’s not cool! My dad loves, respects, and is proud of me no matter what. You should be too.
Well, I wouldn’t be cool with it, because deep down, I know you’re not cool with it.
What if I lost all my limbs and I couldn’t write anymore? Then would you still love, respect, and be proud of me?
Are we really going there?
Come on, Steven Hawking has written tons of things with just his eyes.
I hate you.
Okay, just to explain… I would love you, I just would feel like you’re giving up, and that’s not the person I know.
I just don’t understand why you wouldn’t be proud that I was this amazing mother. Why isn’t that enough?
Because it’s not you. You’re more.
But I want to know that no matter what I do, I’m enough. That you’d be proud of me no matter what.
So, you’d be proud of me if I chose to quit my job and just be a father?
Well then, there’s your answer. Would you respect me if I didn’t want to work but just wanted to be the best father I could be? Don’t answer, I know what you’d say… "I married a dead beat."
It makes me a hypocrite, for sure. An honest hypocrite married to an honest man who doesn’t want to be married to someone who just wants to be a mother.
*And of course I’m not saying "just a mother" as in ONLY, as in how insignificant. I meant just focus on being a mom. If all I wanted to do in the whole world is be their mother and make it my full-time job to do so, even if only for a few years, he’d never be okay with that choice. I think it comes down to what we "know," what we grew up with and took away from that experience.
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