I’ll never get it out, all the feelings I have. I’ll never get them to you in a way you understand I’ll never know how to say it in a way that won’t make you grieve Because the second…
Continue reading...20. August 2009
It wasn't all that long ago. I stayed awake with anxiety, a hot laptop leaving red wormy marks on my stomach. I only noticed them when I got up to pee. I was in too much pain to feel…
Continue reading...15. May 2009
I love this. These Ray Lamontagne moments, where you’re just sitting at a bar with a glass of Rioja, listening to the soulful voice, the one that sings about flowers falling from hair, about how he’s been to…
Continue reading...21. May 2008
Never bleach your teeth the night before a dinner party, Mother said, because you won't get a good nights sleep. You'll be afraid of swallowing too much bleach, so you'll drool on your pillows, and in…
Continue reading...9. February 2007
These days, though mostly the nights, have become a blur. I hear the wails in my sleep, stirring beneath a tent of comfort, hoping they'll quiet. I read them poetry after they eat, trying to avoid the whole eat/sleep cycle…
Continue reading...4. December 2006
If I were in New York with you, it would be snowing. My nose would be running, and I’d wipe it on my sleeve, and you’d see me do it, and I’d shrug. Snow makes moments seem softer and…
Continue reading...13. July 2005
Yeah, so the fcuk what. I'm an Avril Lavigne song. There. I said it. I can't not be what I am, either. If you trying to turn me, into someone else It's easy to see, I'm not down with…
Continue reading...1. June 2005
He knows he can have me. It’s something he won’t forget, like his own birthday. He knows I’d leave you if he asked. If he stepped up, said, “ready.” If only he’d say so. Save you…
Continue reading...4. April 2005
I’d felt that, against a cab window, so many times before you, in that thick heavy silence where you’re wondering what’s next. Your movements are no longer casual; everything feels heavier. I’m tired of my re-run nights of mistakes, of…
Continue reading...8. February 2005
I saw it written on a tee-shirt. I ought to have bought it and worn it. I don't want to know if your song is about me-- or if it's something that I did yesterday. I don't…
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27. January 2010
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