I’ve been combing through the video archives, looking for his twitches, looking for signs of who he was before the surgery. I want to remember what Lucas is like as a baseline, before I was put on high alert and analyzing everything. And in going through the videos, I’ve spotted some of the things I now call twitches. He did it before. I feel better about that now. This sweet moment taken only two weeks ago warms my heart, too, and somehow makes me feel like everything will be okay.