Tomorrow is a big day for me. My book, Straight Up And Dirty, comes out. Onto actual shelves in actual stores. I’m in Austin, so friends keep emailing, "So, are you excited?" I’m sick is what I am, and none of it feels real. If I were in New York, it would feel real. I’d ride the subway and look for someone with my book. But here in Austin, I’ll be in bed, where I’ve been these past few weeks, and nothing will appear to be different.
Yesterday was a big day, too. I actually left the house, though I doubt I showered. Showering takes way too much effort and smells so clean it makes me vomit. In the shower. The Suitor and I went to the movies because dark air conditioning was all I could stand. We saw Monster House in 3D, which really is a movie only worth seeing if you have children. When the credits began to roll, I turned to The Suitor and said, "Nearest exit?" Then I’d like to think I ran, but it was probably more of a dedicated walk. As soon as I saw sunlight, I bent forward and threw up on the ground. "Oh God," I managed to say as my man twisted my hair behind my head, rubbing my back, saying, "it’s okay. It’s okay."
"It is not okay. This is so embarrassing." Then I threw up some more.
"What’s embarrassing about it? You’re pregnant. If you were drunk it would be embarrassing."
"Yeah, but people don’t know." Then I threw up more and began to cry. "It hurts," I said wiping away the tears.
"I know, but this is all normal. It’s all part of it. It will go away soon."
Tomorrow I will be 11 weeks pregnant, exactly. I’m going to the doctor at 11:30 AM for another ultrasound before I leave for New York. I will only be doing one book signing and reading while in New York, so please please please come stop by! I’ll post about that a lot in the next coming days, because quite frankly, I really enjoy meeting readers and their friends. It changes the dynamic, I think, once you meet the people behind the names and posts. So put it in your calendars. NEXT Wednesday. In the meanwhile, I’m only thinking good happy thoughts for Tuesday, tomorrow.